I can’t say this enough.. Being a mother is the hardest job you will ever take on. It’s rewarding, it’s gratifying and yes very fulfilling, but I tell you it’s not for the faint or weary. I’ve become the best darn juggler around, a jack of all trades- one hat, two hat, three hat, four.. No this isn’t Dr. Seuss it’s called WELCOME TO MOTHERHOOD!
Sleepless nights meet 5am.. Get up shower, no did that last night.. WAIT did I.. Ok, get son ready, diaper bag packed- CHECK- insert in car.. WAIT I look like shit- changed one diaper… shit now your pooping!! -_- (really dude…) Make-up… no wait hair, where are my shoes?? Just get out the damn door… Car seat, car seat, car seat…. Drop baby off by 6:30am- teacher, oh please not nowwww… and finally get my hot mess ass to work by 7am SHARP!
I am career woman hear me… BREAK DOWN!
Long gone are the days when I used to stay out all night, DRUNK, with my besties just to pop out of bed and jump into work without skipping a beat. Dear 21 year old me.. PLEASE COME BACK! It was that simple and that easy.
These days I am lucky if I can even get my hair up in a bun and some mascara on. Between every 3 hour feedings, punches and jabs from a restless or dreaming baby and dirty diapers.. tons and tons of dirty diapers… I have forgotten the meaning of sleep. Now couple that with the fact that I work full time in a demanding and rigorous environment where my boss doesn’t give two shits that I didn’t get a full nights rest…. You have a recipe for FML pie!
2 hours sleep + 9 hour work days = missing my son every second, minute, hour. Seeing that I have not won the lotto YET (still working on that dream), working full time is just what this mama bear has to do. BUT it’s no easy walk I tell ya. Most days I feel like I am scaling Mt. Everest, but the picture of my smiling son pushes me to continue to push forward in my career. I want to afford him the luxuries I wasn’t and the only way to do that is to put on my big girl panties.
Being a career woman is something I have always wanted though. I am a hard worker, willing to put in the time and effort to get the job done, always the first person in and last person to leave. But then, along came baby.
Now quote me when I say career and baby can absolutely co-exist and those that make that happen are what Maya Angelou calls, PHENOMENAL WOMAN. Now let it be known though that I am not trying to take away from the SAHM’s out there as I would never dare bring my lips to quiver what do you do all day ;) …. But all you career woman, pat yourself on the back, give yourself two snaps, shit, down a couple shots girls.. Cause if you are this person, you absolutely deserve to be recognized.
I know that being mom and meeting my career goals will never be an easy marriage but I do hope that I can always meet my expectations as well as my son’s. It will always be a struggle and sometimes one or the other may suffer but I vow this:
Mommy loves you very much. Remember that life is made up of a series of laughter and tears coupled with a lot of compromises and sacrifices. I sacrifice time with you to give you the life you deserve and compromise my job responsibilities to meet your needs. If there is anything I want you to always remember it is that even though mom can’t spend every second of the day with you (and believe me, I wish I could), I promise to never miss a first moment, a soccer game, recital, holiday or birthday. ‘Cause ultimately baby, it’s not about the materials that one possess but rather the memories, the only thing one can take after this life.
Always & Forever,